|—||Osho Rajneesh (via larmoyante)|
"January Dream (A Warm Coat of Guilt Washes Over My Heart)"
I think I’m only going to share this song here with you, my fellow Tumblr folks. At least for now, anyway. The lyrics in this one deal with something a little too personal for a small handful of people I know on Facebook to listen to at this point in time - if they just so happen to stumble upon it, that is. I mean, I know I could just block them from the post but I dunno… We’ll see. To be more specific, I’m talking about the subject of this song and those who may be close to him. This song isn’t a stab against him, it’s just a dream I had about him.
But I think I have Aspergers Syndrome. Weird thought, I know, but after doing some reading of the subject, a lot of clicked with me. I dunno.
I got way too high yesterday. Well, maybe not TOO high but I definitely got really really high. The highest I’ve been in some time. And it was only one joint! Shared between 2 other dudes I know, mind you. 2 extraordinary dudes. 2 of my favourite dudes. Dude. Anyway. Jam was amazing. Making real progress in the songs we’re writing, unreal how fun it is. I’ve been in a band before and creating music was never this rewarding like it is in Dizzy Spells. I knew that from the first moment we jammed. It was an eye opener. “This is what music is about”. I can’t explain what it was that made me feel that, other than just…saying it made me feel that. That’s all I need, really. To feel something! To know that it’s right, y’know? I know I’ve wandered off from the original point of this post about getting too high yesterday, but I just had to fly with that feeling and let it spill. I hope I didn’t look like an idiot yesterday is all I’m saying. I don’t need to be high to do that, but it can sure accentuate it. Anyway, yeah. I love the people I’ve surrounded myself with these days. Can’t say the same thing about 2009 and before.
Sometimes I talk very little and I fear I’m looked at weirdly for it. It doesn’t mean I don’t enjoy the people’s company who are with me. I’m just, yeah… Shy and quiet. And when I do talk, I tend to talk a lot without saying a whole lot.